its a horrible feeling 

to know the only way

to be close to someone

you miss so badly

is to spend hours upon hours

looking at pictures

snuggling with the pillow

that no longer smells like him

and worn t shirts

that remind me of time

where being obsessed 

with him was okay

i think until i talk to him

until i see him

until i hold him

there is going to be

a void in my heart

that i won't be able to fill

i was stupid to end it so soon.

i was so happy this summer.

why did i make the choice to move on without him in my life?

never have i made such bad judgment

i want to make more memories with you

i want to do all the things that aren't the same without you

i want to sit in the house that we tried so hard to make a home

and cuddle,

laugh,

watch movies, lost, 

and you play video games

i miss you playing with me

i miss your kiss, your smell, and yes, even the hamster.

i miss the love, and the enjoyment we got from each other

even if we were both sick and hadn't showered in a few days

i  m i s s  b e i n g  c o m p l e t e l y  c o m f o r t a b l e  i n  m y  s k i n