nopictures

a good friend said

she's seen you about

bar hopping downtown

she said you seemed

happy and carefree

i can't even express

the nausea i felt

when she told me

how often you've

been spotted

girls dancing

all around you

as if the pictures

of you wrapping

your arms around her

on halloween wasn't

enough for me to bear

i don't want to imagine

all the girls you've kissed

fondled, flirted

or slept with

but my mind is racing

and it can't slow down

you were made

just for me and

no one else

i'm sure you've seen

the pictures of me and him

but tomorrow 

they will be gone

leaving space

for pictures that

have not yet been taken

of our faces smiling

in pure, unwavering happiness

for those

images of love

will be solely ours

i wish i could

stop worrying 

about every little thing

you do without me

stop thinking

about how you might

be happier without me

i can't let you go

its killing me inside

i wish she didn't tell me

it may have kept me sane

because i'm not even

close to being

complete without you.